Monday, January 19, 2009
esther cheah's self-esteem: ALL-TIME HIGH!
i know. hard to believe right?
first game of the season! MGS vs Westwood Sec. we won! not to be ego. 42-5. pretty good eh! haha at first the westwood scorers said that they only scored 4 goals, and then there was sort of an argument where the umpire was of no help (okay fine, she wasn't supposed to be. but still, i think she was kinda rude :X) but in the end everyone agreed that it was 42-5. so we left it at that. yeah i feel pretty good about my performance, i thought i did quite well.
AND PRIYA YOU NEED TO START FEELING GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF!
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
5:55 AM
Monday, January 12, 2009
I AM SCREWED FOR COMPETITION.
sorry guys if we lose on the first game. it's probably gonna be my fault.
SHEEEET
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
3:29 AM
Friday, January 9, 2009
i don't know how to put in words what i'm feeling now. it's like a mix of anger and excitement and anticipation and stress and routine. i just can't face the prospect of doing the same thing over and over again for 2 to 3 more years and then doing something the same for 2 years and then 5 years. there's just this huge gap! between having a life and living it. it's so different. i was thinking about it today, and it's like do i just want to have a life or live it? cause if you don't start grabbing it now, damn. i think it'll eat you up or something.
life is so
scary.
like, i mean you're happy with whatever you're acheiving now, but the time comes when everything's pushed to you and you gotta rely on YOURSELF. only yourself. and if you let stuff grab you, it's gonna suck so bad. so bad. i'm really sian about life right now. i'm not suicidal, don't get me wrong, i'm just looking for an extra spark. you know, the jolt which makes people want to be alive and
embrace living! why can't we all do that? i mean, i envy the people who find real meaning in living their lives. like they really push to live it to the fullest. all these years whenever you know you're watching a reality show and the contestants are all like 'i sacrificed this this this because i want to live my life to the fullest' i thought it was crap. but now i really know what it means, and i want to do it.
i want to live my life to the fullest.
hey, everyone has a post like this once in a while.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
6:14 AM
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
okay i know it's been long.
i've been busy.
i've (quite) enjoyed these first few days of school, i think this year's going to be
quite enjoyable. our teachers are quite quirky (in their own ways) and i haven't fallen asleep at all! (oh, you know. maybe one or two classes. who's counting?)
yeah. i'm just waiting for the netball season to start! :D i'm excited!
i've got quite a number of things to look forward to this year, so yeah
i think it's gonna be fun.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
6:15 AM
