BAH. confusion
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
the moment i left class for CCA i knew something was wrong that day.
i wasn't energized.
and now i know the effects of non-energization.
confusion.to tell you the truth, i have never been so confused in my life.
ever.
maybe when i was a little kid.
not for around 10 years have i ever felt so confused.
triangle is my most hated word.i mean, if i can't do the freaking triangle can't we just forget that concept? at least for me? whoever can do it fine, do it in the game, but come on, when i try to do it it's so crap!
coach seriously pissed me off today.
gosh.
why?
her end-of-game speech and the thoughts in my head.
ladies, it's not about trying.
What?it's about doing it.
So we can't try before we do it?I know the plays may seem difficult to you, but what we want to do is try our best to do what we can.
I thought it wasn't about trying.HELP ME, SOMEBODY.i was seriously on the verge of tears when she took me out to talk to me.
i didn't want to talk to her.
i wanted to run away.
i wanted to get out of there.
real quick.
and now, as i'm recollecting,
it all comes flooding back.
even the kawanship can't cheer me up now.
DEPRESSION, DON'T EAT ME.i cried. i remember i did. when she said that she would wait.
i don't like waiting. i HATE waiting.i know hate is a strong word, that's why i'm using it.
i want to break free
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
7:07 AM
